Dusk And Her Embrace

"Oh, listen to them
The children of the night
What sweet music they make"
[From Bram Stoker's "Dracula" (1897)]

Ya, what sweet music it is, as I can't sleep.. I've had some serious insomnia going on for like 4 weeks now.. I'm lucky to get 3 hrs of sleep if that...... I wonder what happens to the human psyche from lack of sleep? It cant' screw me up anymore than I all ready am! Guess we will see.....

Through twilight, darkness and moonrise
My scarlet tears will run
As stolen blood and whispered love
Of fantasies undone

Grey Would Be The Color If I Had Heart

Blah, that's all I have to say about the past week I have had... As I were not depressed enough. I've had nothing but trouble with my car. 3 Repairs and 2 new tires later, I'm deeper in debt.

Other than that.. SSDD as they say... I've just been real depressed the past few weeks.. Tired of life, tired of being single....

To quote Trent and NIN (as I've got this playing as I write this blog)

hey God
why are you doing this to me?
am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?
why am i seething with this animosity?
hey God
i think you owe me a great big apology.